the people at her funeral? You could make something really macabre out of it -- after all Halloween is hours away and spirits abound. It was not a long story with a complicated narrative; those dreams require more insight and effort than I have in me. But the short ones, the one-reels as it were, allow me use of minimal effort to see something that might be interesting.
The faces of people I love dearly discussing me got my attention. Matter of fact, it caused me to think I might want to write that script. No, I don't have control issues. I just want to be sure of what will happen. Although the details are not very important; it was the nature of the content and setting that seemed to be significant and I was interested in the conversation.
I've discussed time and again the matter of being 50-16 and watching the days pass, so there's no surprise that one would think of her own demise. Whether timing is important or not, I am aware that it is something I am considering, consciously or subconsciously.
Anyway, I am still living and breathing, and functioning at some level. So I will go forward and try to enjoy the time that lays before me, whether it's long or short. What else can we do? My Higher Power has not consulted me nor informed me; and I probably don't really want to know.
I understand that all we really know and have is today. I can contemplate tomorrow and plan for things yet to come, but I can't do them until that time has come. Not particularly bright or insightful, but pretty obvious. So today is here and I'm OK. When I wake up tomorrow, I'll carry on as best I can.
I hope when 'the time' has come the people I love will know that I really do care for them and do not wish to leave; that sharing this world with them has been truly wonderful. I hope they realize my world has been rich and full because they've filled it with goodness.
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