Friday was a landmark day,

and we weren't prepared for what it brought. Thursday night Rosey noticed Annie's left eye had something very wrong, so we determined I would take her to the vet Friday.

The eye was indeed in bad condition, from either a cyst that had come through the eye or tumor showing on the surface. Either one would've had the same impact: the eye could not be saved and would have to be removed. Annie, who had aged considerably in the last few weeks, having lost weight from kidneys starting to malfunction, increasing unsteadiness on her feet, and reduced vision, was not a good candidate for sedation and surgery. We knew some time back that the Cushing's disease that attacked her could take her, but when the doctor saw the eye and found enlarged lymph nodes in her mouth and other places, it seemed a poor idea to subject her to continued treatments and suffering.

Our sweet doggie was not her usual friendly, cheerful self and seemed in discomfort; we couldn't say how much but she clearly wasn't well. It was Rosey's decision, but we all supported her choice to give Annie peace and let her go. The vet even gave Rosey a hug (really out of character) and expressed his support and condolences.

We miss her; my house is strangely calm with only two dogs. While some things will be simpler, I wouldn't have chosen to be without sweet Annie. But I wouldn't ask her to remain with us and be so sick and miserable. She had been until recently good natured, playful, friendly and loving. So her dear presence is grieved. I believe there's a special place in heaven for our animal friends and companions; if there isn't then I don't think it's really heaven.

I'm proud of how well Rosey's handled all this. Knowing how much it hurt personally to let her go, she still wished to do well for Annie. Friends have rallied, offering condolences and support, so many understanding from personal experience the nature of the loss.

There's a history now of companions who've left us behind with good memories. I am thankful we had Annie for 12 good years and glad we could give her rest.