how old you've become, you still have to keep going. Sometimes, however, one might feel like just sitting down and giving up. At every point, I could give up or keep going. I've been in much tougher places than this (this being today and my impending sense of age), so don't give up now.
I am increasingly aware, however, of changed viewpoints, reduced expectations, and an increased sense of passing, like an awareness of time, and clouds, and events that pass by. Frankly, I don't want to jump up and grab on, so things simply pass.
It's the end of another year, and this is exactly the time when we contemplate where we are, what we've done, where we've been. Everything seems to occur now in small increments; there are no grand events or occasions.
Christmas looms ahead, only days away, but I have little interest in the event. I'm thankful that I am not purchasing gifts, not major ones anyway. Children and I agreed to contribute to causes other than each other; so gifts have been purchased for needy children, checks sent to animal shelters, and a few other things may be added to this list. I like this very much; I prefer to not receive more stuff that I don't need. Well wishes have as much meaning or more than some thing boxed and wrapped up.
Maybe this sense of quiet (wait, is that peace?) is a gift we should share to reduce stress. I remember years of hectic activity, participation, high expense and great relief when the frenzy had passed. Maybe it's better the way it is now, without the animation and anxiety.
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