ignore it was my MO, for a long time. Sometimes that's why I succeeded at something--didn't know I couldn't do it.
That was how things got done so I didn't question it. Funny how that worked. Life wasn't always fun and difficulty was not foreign, but somehow I kept going.
It escaped me (there's that reality being kept out) that I was growing older and things would change. Ignorance seemed blissful for a while, but as I have slowed ignorance has acquiesced to reality.
SO here I am realizing life is what it is and my choices are still (1) quit, or (2) keep going. Only the keep going thing isn't as much fun and seems to require a lot more energy that I can put out sometimes.
Yet, I'm not willing to quit either. SO here I am still plugging, and looking for ways and reasons to keep on. SO I ask myself, if I had seen the script would I have started out on this trip?
I hope so; but doesn't matter 'cause here I am. Nothing was ever guaranteed, but hope is heady stuff that pushes you on. Now hope seems to have taken a beating and needs mending.
Not expecting triumphs, but still wanting to feel that something good is ahead.
You are an amazing writer, once I started reading I could not stop until I read them all .... I hope you continue this, I think you could take all of them and self publish into a little book
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